It has been so long since I last updated this blog. I can't seems to focus on it since I've been busy writing for The Edge while at the same time trying to catch up with my studies. God, I always love to write. It's the only avenue that I could express myself and let my opinion be heard. Sometimes writing make me realize what I never thought of myself before. It is sort of retrospective myself, reflecting on who I really am.
The reason why I feel like updating this blog back because recently I was quite lost. I sort of like lost myself, who I really am, what I stand for and what I'm searching. I want to find myself back. I've been wondering around recklessly, doing things that I never thought of before. And not that it wasn't good, and not that I regret it all. But god knows what I'm feeling and what I really need.
I'm searching for love. I want to love and be loved in return. I have been searching for love for god knows how long. And now I am so tired. I want to stop searching for love, but I just can't seem to make myself stop from searching for it. I've been searching for love everywhere. God knows where I've been to for the sake of love. I failed. Love seems to avoid me.
Am I not worthy to be loved? Am I destined not to find it because of what I've done before. Is this the punishment for me?
Only lord knows.
